Undressed

Source of image: google.com Dear Diary.. Haha. Very funny. I chose this title and this day because of a certain unforgettable memory that will shelter my life on and on. Two. What does it mean? Just a regular number or predominates as a major significance in one's life? For me, it counts as a significance: two as for one plus one, that stands for 'me and you'. Otherwise, two is also just a number, a date to be more precise! Two years ago I was lost in translation, in my own wealthy world full of disco balls and dirty dancing on the dance floors. Teen dirtbag with a wasted mind trying to fit into a new, civilized society. There I was: dancing like  there is nobody watching me, even though youngsters in their mid-twenties were dripping down their almost empty beers. Teenager with a plan! Each slack of moment spent with various people were a waste of my precious time but never did I think I might find something barely interesting in this present tense small city ...

Source of image: google.com Never thought that I will experience something called 'pain' in the depths of my heart. I cannot see a sun anymore. The Ra God has let me down, again. Maybe it is because of the weather but I am sure my street itself has not experienced any ray of sunshine for some time being and I miss it. I terribly miss it. No sparkle 'redish' in my cheekbones and I need to write. I must write my feelings only that this certain moment is not the perfect timing of the day. There is a project somewhere on my desktop that screams after me to be dealt with already. Outside is pouring rain, literally raining cats and dogs. It must be the weather. Oh, dear! How I miss that sunshine and that tanned skin of mine, raising the glass up screaming 'Yamas!' Wish I could go back and observe the beauty of being away, again. I must admit I actually had no spare time to compete with my dazzling adventurous mind, full of ideas, but none to be achieved at least ...

YES, YOU ! Another days passed and I am feeling better than ever; more energetic, more keen on doing the best. I have finalized my exams, almost two years of glory gone with the wind and only memoirs could remain on this impeccable timeline. Denmark, or should I say Odense, the city which I have lived for approximately two years, I have reached my achievements and proved myself that I am a worthy, sociable and definitely full of life! Back in time, would never go back. Nor start a new beginning. I have no regrets, yet not finished my journey, which will continue in Copenhagen, the capital of bikes and radioactive living. Jesus, I cannot believe with how much faster pace the time is passing and with it, the memories: photographs and videos. These are the only ones which reminds me of laughter and good living. My next chapter of the journey will entail a lot more responsibility, love and character. Finding my own-self. What am I more worth for? Which is the path I must trace? Or r...

And yes, we have a winner ! So, today, wonderful day after yesterday's awful weather! Sun coming out was felt like no other feeling, just because I have not seen such a 'beauty' in quite a long time, since the weather in the North is colder than the Central Europe. And what can I talk about today? I can find millions and billions of subjects but let's talk about friends. Not the TV show, but friends, in general. I had and still have friends all around the world, from my home-country to where I live and in between. Since one of the two best friends I have from my home-city has celebrated her 20th birthday, which makes me even more home-sick that I have not been next to her, I decided to write about it. How I feel about my past, about my present and mostly how my future would look like and around which people would I most engage myself into conversations and certain friendships. I don't know about you, but for me, friends have been now and then and they go away. W...

Today I had a very interesting discussion about the fact that men are from Mars whilst women are from Venus. This conversation put me on thoughts all day long when finally did I recall some judgement in it. I will not discuss about how different the human male and human female are, but how about adding more spice to it and talk about what makes them itch. When two different personalities join their presence together in girlfriend and boyfriend, they are not only committing to themselves, but also to an entire time of timing. Why am I writing in riddles? Because time is the answer above it. It is all about timing. When you get together, what point of maturity have you reached, are you carrying your past in your luggage you just moved in? It's even about timing when you start arguing. X is in the room, watching God knows what while Y is in the kitchen preparing dinner. Suddenly, dinner is ready, but the table is not set, napkins on floor, cat on the couch; the living room in a whole...

I'm not so in the mood for writing but to be honest, I just want to get it out from me: this urge of anger. I had a few days, a week ago some issues and because of unhappiness regarding a certain thing, actually everything caught a new angle : anger. I am very unhappy about distance, loneliness and boredom. If only.. Well shit with it, because I had enough and because I am only here, now for a certain reason! Apparently, things become more complicated the minute we sleep on them, more and more. I hate distance. I had 4 months distance and they went away just like a ray. Even though now I feel much better than before, I am scared about the urge coming back.. Not the anger, but just an urge.. What can I say? Time solves every single teardrop and I feel that I need to work on my ass to the top, again, to prove, myself that I am the only one that can make a change - for myself, because I love (myself) you. I will miss you, love, but loving someone means setting him free 'caus...