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Haha. Very funny.
I chose this title and this day because of a certain unforgettable memory that will shelter my life on and on.
Two. What does it mean?
Just a regular number or predominates as a major significance in one's life?
For me, it counts as a significance: two as for one plus one, that stands for 'me and you'.
Otherwise, two is also just a number, a date to be more precise!
Two years ago I was lost in translation, in my own wealthy world full of disco balls and dirty dancing on the dance floors. Teen dirtbag with a wasted mind trying to fit into a new, civilized society. There I was: dancing like there is nobody watching me, even though youngsters in their mid-twenties were dripping down their almost empty beers.
Teenager with a plan! Each slack of moment spent with various people were a waste of my precious time but never did I think I might find something barely interesting in this present tense small city of mine.
Tme.* is a cosmopolitan city, nothing compared to Ode.*
But there was a time when I saw it as a fairytale! That's how wonderful it was for me, as a beginner and newby to life! My own. It sounded picture perfect!
The only thing that went missing was number two!
Where were you.. hmm..
Being in the twenties also got me reflecting onto studies and whether or not can I continue what I have just begun!
two years ago - 'Of course I can!'
And here I am, after two years of independence, where daddyo' doesn't count as major help.
Two years of joy and happiness, of a degree and a continuation of another.
I am most proud of myself when I look back and I see a lost pretty little girl, green-eyed, seeking for a pretty little boy, blue eyes, blond hair which ended up..well maybe you already know the story!
Neah. They ended up together: for two whole years!
Anddd give it up for the longest relationship accomplished - the winner is.. param pam pam *R* !!!
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I see myself now, present tense as beautifying character, strong, independent and most likely mature. Because of these two endless years, they made me realize how much I have to offer in order to be successful! Happy, content and in love. Not only with my life-partner, but with life itself!
You see..all of us are looking for someone to take care of us, be there for us, but what is more important than everything in the whole wide world is to be happy: first, about yourself, then about others! And let your pozitive side effect other people as well! Since meeting my soul-mate, I have created many times the perfect character - R. in this situation and in different situation and so on. The other side of the story, the more important one was just to be myself. If I am a lunatic, fine by me and others around me - they love me for who I am. My life-partner loves me for who I am and this is outrageously amazing!
I thank him, but you know what? I thank my parents first ! I am most proud and impressed of my beautiful parents that have had a strong bonding ever since they met and continued for 25 years and counting!
This Summer they have taught me valuable lessons, ones you never learn in schools! That, of love!
I feel gratitude, it is always there, even though sometimes I might think poorly of me and my ego might set in, I immediately fight with it and I say to myself - I am strong, I chose right! The right path for me will I always follow.
Two years of happiness next to a handsome blue-eyed man with valuable headset of principles and love for us! I feel gratitude for that I am with this person thou he has changed me into a better person, a whole-hearted young woman! I love you and I loved the two years I have spent, nourished and blossomed at the same time into a beautiful flower Camellia what I am today..
What is next.. is just a multitude of pozitive particles raging onto me.. beating up the ego and setting up higher goals to achieve in shortly!
Thank you for what I have become today and what I will be tomorrow..
With love,
R.