Undressed

Things can never be the same once you leave.  You literally leave a piece of your heart in every corner of the world you travel. You take it back to the corner of the world you decide to settle down and memories are left behind. Memories that are transferred into knowledge. Knowledge that is creatively designed into your life. Once I left my home, I lost most of the principles taught since most of them were useless for the world I was about to broaden my horizons. Most acquaintances were left behind and so do new acquaintances come in place. Life moves on by the rhythm of the soul. But that's okay! My life was all about change, after all; it's just because fear takes place at nerve-racking moments - when you most need the strength, that's when fear comes right in with its itsy bits of pessimism. I'm one of a kind and until I learn to accept this, I will live in fear - of letting people down, letting myself down, of other people's thoughts, my thoughts. Therefore,...

I've been through certain struggles lately that made me the person I am today. I'm still learning, of course. To give in years of your life to someone that you think they mean the world to you is just simply.. wow. Many people nowadays live in the modern era where mobiles replace communication. Where art thou chivalry times,  hm ? I wish I were a hopeless romantic. Maybe I just became one and don't know it, yet! Few random emotions bumble through my head and day after day I wish some of them would stop because it turns me into regretting things I never done.. For some time now, I go to sleep in tears with swollen eyelids simply because I deeply wish things were different! When a new day comes, I hope for it to be wonderful and it ends up in the same stage - me crying a river and puffy eyes! I keep on doing same mistakes and it feels like a never-ending bridge. I just can't cross it safely. My life even feels unsafe! I am a danger to my own specie and I am the only one...

One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. Carl Jung. Imagine yourself in an empty, vain room with white walls. You feel that you need the air to breathe. You try to search for a window but to your surprise, there is none. None and nothing that could take you back to that blissful moment you were once used to. By mistake you open up a box which was hidden deep in the infinite whites of the room which leads you to the first spot of black. Mesmerized and utterly human, you dig in deeper pretending to search for the mystified air whereas you only reach for more blackness spots. Anxious and really annoyed, the only thing left is to choose between the infinite whites or black spots covering the whites of the room. One thing remaining is still the urge to breathe which are terrifyingly stubborn visuals of your subconscious.Your mind is working wildly and your arms are headed towards a flickering light b...

I am starting to realize little by little and step by step how much loss of time spent on meaningless variable thingies. From laziness to utter disgrace of spending more on sleeping rather than waking up like an early bird who catches the worm faster. Then again, after realizing all this elusive jazz of nonsense - pardon me - of ugly truth, I'm beginning to question myself whether is it worth spending even more time in such madness rather than invigorating myself with genuine principles. First step above all is to remind yourself what you're worth at. Of course, every human being is worth living and breathing the same air but it takes few out of all these humans to actually understand that they are meant for greater ideals in life. For that, I have been struggling lately and actually even from the beginning of the year; it has been such a nerve-wracking period that I had to organize every bits and pieces from goals to lifestyle, from food disorders to healthy choice and let i...

Some guys would be so eager to have her and he doesn't even know it nor he believes it! Some say it takes time to develop a relationship but most of the time, time is the benefactor who breaks it. You can wish for so much but if your partner wishes something else than you please, then it is all for nothing - everything you wish may fall in vain. It feels as if you were walking on empty ground streets and there is nothing in the world that could make you change this feeling. But then again, guess what awaits you at the other end of the tunnel? Is it more pain? Well, you know how they say.. 'no pain, no gain'! Us, human beings may ask plenty of questions and find various directions towards the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes, I find myself in awkward moments where I stand alone in my bed looking at the glimpse of light that falls beneath the clouds in the sky. I tend to comprise the feeling and relate to the fact that a relationship of any kind resembles to a dai...

Time flies as we know and so do we, humans. Even if we literally cannot fly just because society cuts our wings wide open, away, doesn't mean we cannot learn how to fly back. We all start somewhere whether it is our relationships, field of studies, work, partnerships, war or peace. 'I did what I had to do.' - they all say. What does that really mean? You did exactly what it was in your power, will and your mind to do so. I sometimes find it outrageous how people can conquer their sins by admitting what was not trustworthy or a gainful matter. If you, as a human being cannot satisfy your needs by admitting to yourself that you are what you are, then why on Earth would you destroy other people's will and dreams? I often find it offensive how poorly we judge our newbies or oldies nowadays. Even if they are your family, oh but if they are your family, let's exploit the most out of them! Let them bleed with their eyes and heart while we, the family, take what's ri...

'Siempre me quedara la voz suave del mar.. Volver a respirar la lluvia que caera sobre este cuerpo y mojara La flor que cresce en mi y volvera a reir y cada dia Un instante volvere a pensar en ti.' - Bebe - Siempre me quedara I am looking from afar and checking you out. You are not looking at me, yet, because I can observe the obstructive way of holding your pen between your lips. I find it tedious and unattractive but I am trying to define the ideal concept in my head I once had. I find it difficult to bind my memory into bits and pieces and then a whole. This might be just the right amount of distraction I get since the mystery has unravelled itself and yet I see him reaching for the cup of tea just beside him. He takes a sip and a drop just ran out onto his lips. Mmm. 'I could bite them.' I get distracted again by the unappealing shirt he's wearing and cramped jeans that make him look like an old fart. He moves away his eyes and remains mesmerized of my dee...

Source of image:  http://www.fastcompany.com/3017201/work-smart/for-real-workplace-engagement-empower-every-employee-to-be-an-entrepreneur I see. I learn. We are. As much as I like to brag about new ideas, new concepts and what I've learned so far, my only goal this year is to do as much as I have in my powers 'to succeed', 'to change' and 'to be'. It's a pity that this New Year's caught me by surprise and barely felt the transcending between the years. It also caught me by surprise with many other factors that I wish to take one by one. Firstly, let's just sadly finish with the year of 2014 by saying that it was by far the best year of my life. Indeed it implied a lot of traveling, from even one continent to another and a new country to approach that might even make it to my future plans.      The following and current year of 2015 is impaling back on me. Oh well..life can give you everything and you feel that you actually deserve it so...