Undressed

I've been through certain struggles lately that made me the person I am today. I'm still learning, of course. To give in years of your life to someone that you think they mean the world to you is just simply.. wow. Many people nowadays live in the modern era where mobiles replace communication. Where art thou chivalry times,  hm ? I wish I were a hopeless romantic. Maybe I just became one and don't know it, yet! Few random emotions bumble through my head and day after day I wish some of them would stop because it turns me into regretting things I never done.. For some time now, I go to sleep in tears with swollen eyelids simply because I deeply wish things were different! When a new day comes, I hope for it to be wonderful and it ends up in the same stage - me crying a river and puffy eyes! I keep on doing same mistakes and it feels like a never-ending bridge. I just can't cross it safely. My life even feels unsafe! I am a danger to my own specie and I am the only one...

One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. Carl Jung. Imagine yourself in an empty, vain room with white walls. You feel that you need the air to breathe. You try to search for a window but to your surprise, there is none. None and nothing that could take you back to that blissful moment you were once used to. By mistake you open up a box which was hidden deep in the infinite whites of the room which leads you to the first spot of black. Mesmerized and utterly human, you dig in deeper pretending to search for the mystified air whereas you only reach for more blackness spots. Anxious and really annoyed, the only thing left is to choose between the infinite whites or black spots covering the whites of the room. One thing remaining is still the urge to breathe which are terrifyingly stubborn visuals of your subconscious.Your mind is working wildly and your arms are headed towards a flickering light b...