Undressed

Source of image: google.com I have turned on my laptop so many times with the first thought on hand to start writing again. It never actually happened when I ended up writing few lines and then marching in with new tabs opened captivated by other blazing stuff. Then I came across the fact that I gathered barely a page of drafts, enough to make me feel that I'm losing it. And yet, I was mistaken. I suddenly decided it's time for something new. There comes a moment in our life where years of routine can be turned around with just a three month giveaway package of truth in your face where all your baggage of disposal or let's just say it right this time - past experience - is fading little by little. I mean, come on! It's about time little miss sunshine learned her way around! Who would have thought even for one second that a period of time spent in Paradise will change one's mind 360 degrees! Truth to be told, I definitely miss it right now. The touch of freedom...

Source of image: google.com I've been struggling to understand for a very long time what is inside a man's head. Is it only sex for breakfast, lunch and dinner and sleep in the midnight? Of course, let's not talk about food! One thing I've learned about men among the years is to not leave them with an empty stomach. I repeat - no empty stomach! No food equals anger and when anger occurs, tears come up. So remember, ladies, don't you dare to leave your husband hungry. Unless you want to suffer the consequences. If a man is only all that fuss, what lies in a woman's worth? Is she needed only to be the puppet of the season? Food and hot chills in the Summer while driven by a young curly Italian in a Lamborghini? Speaking of Summer.. We are in good ol' June! Half a year has passed and yet another one to come. When to expect when expecting? It's like traveling without your ID with a small suitcase underneath your bum alluring others with your fake gli...

It's said that life holds you back but you are the only cause of holding back. This blog was meant to be about feelings, which I felt them growing bigger each step of my journey and each downfall. To be honest, I haven't really had downfalls, only unhappiness coming from the unpleasant way I am seeing myself turning into. I have started watching 'The Biggest Loser' and somehow, deep down I related so much to this TV series. Of course, judging by my tremendous weight gain in the past 3 years, it's not even shocking that I underestimated myself for so many years. I think I have struggled with weight gain since I was a small kid. My grandmother was feeding me way too much food from the early age of 1.. every time I was confident or at least getting there, one or another person would start by adding that I must lose some weight. Because of these hurdles called relatives and family, I always discouraged myself, never thought I looked good enough. But now I am almost 2...

Source of image: google.com At least writing is the first best thing I possessed. Me and my other half/part of me would like to explain how things are handling with it comes to growing, learning from mistakes and create new ones because it's only human. My mood? Eh, no mood. No sleep. No words. No nothing. Just writing. Yes.. writing, my only friend I have at this very own moment. At least when I write, this so-called journal does not criticize me, neither does it call me names nor start a fight, which is the best genuine invention ever created. And just when I have whispered to myself - 'this time will be different', now I mumble 'Just like last time.' And you know what..? Dear love, I am what I am. Nothing more, nor less. I just wanted to get back those moments when we first met and those months of non-contradicting and lots of romance. Yes, I am a cheesy romantic full of energy ready to be consumed on certain entertaining stuff. Yes, I loved those crappy...