It's said that life holds you back but you are the only cause of holding back.
This blog was meant to be about feelings, which I felt them growing bigger each step of my journey and each downfall. To be honest, I haven't really had downfalls, only unhappiness coming from the unpleasant way I am seeing myself turning into.
I have started watching 'The Biggest Loser' and somehow, deep down I related so much to this TV series. Of course, judging by my tremendous weight gain in the past 3 years, it's not even shocking that I underestimated myself for so many years. I think I have struggled with weight gain since I was a small kid. My grandmother was feeding me way too much food from the early age of 1.. every time I was confident or at least getting there, one or another person would start by adding that I must lose some weight. Because of these hurdles called relatives and family, I always discouraged myself, never thought I looked good enough.
But now I am almost 23.. and life is walking past by me..
I definitely do not want to go back in time but I most definitely no longer want to waste my time in regards of kg. I started so many times a new diet and never went through with them. 'Why all this fuss, R.? You are better than this!' my inner conscious surrenders me on a silver plate - the gym. And indeed, I know I must succeed. It is all about feelings indeed because if I wouldn't have added so much negativity and pressure to myself, maybe I could have enjoyed more the moments I've went through: Klaipeda, Telsiai, Vilnius-Lithuania; Shanghai and Beijing-China.
Summer is almost here..birthday getting soon..
How would I have the courage to burst out of my comfort zone and clean the mess dealt within so many years.. motivation and determination-key words to success. And it's not end of the world - it's only 44 pounds. Let's start a new journey of my life, a new chapter to write and get finally into my own skin I have kept it hidden for far too long!
Because you deserve it!
Loads of love,
R.
This blog was meant to be about feelings, which I felt them growing bigger each step of my journey and each downfall. To be honest, I haven't really had downfalls, only unhappiness coming from the unpleasant way I am seeing myself turning into.
I have started watching 'The Biggest Loser' and somehow, deep down I related so much to this TV series. Of course, judging by my tremendous weight gain in the past 3 years, it's not even shocking that I underestimated myself for so many years. I think I have struggled with weight gain since I was a small kid. My grandmother was feeding me way too much food from the early age of 1.. every time I was confident or at least getting there, one or another person would start by adding that I must lose some weight. Because of these hurdles called relatives and family, I always discouraged myself, never thought I looked good enough.
But now I am almost 23.. and life is walking past by me..
I definitely do not want to go back in time but I most definitely no longer want to waste my time in regards of kg. I started so many times a new diet and never went through with them. 'Why all this fuss, R.? You are better than this!' my inner conscious surrenders me on a silver plate - the gym. And indeed, I know I must succeed. It is all about feelings indeed because if I wouldn't have added so much negativity and pressure to myself, maybe I could have enjoyed more the moments I've went through: Klaipeda, Telsiai, Vilnius-Lithuania; Shanghai and Beijing-China.
Summer is almost here..birthday getting soon..
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| Source of image: google.com |
How would I have the courage to burst out of my comfort zone and clean the mess dealt within so many years.. motivation and determination-key words to success. And it's not end of the world - it's only 44 pounds. Let's start a new journey of my life, a new chapter to write and get finally into my own skin I have kept it hidden for far too long!
Because you deserve it!
Loads of love,
R.
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| Source of image: google.com |