And yes, we have a winner !
So, today, wonderful day after yesterday's awful weather! Sun coming out was felt like no other feeling, just because I have not seen such a 'beauty' in quite a long time, since the weather in the North is colder than the Central Europe.
And what can I talk about today? I can find millions and billions of subjects but let's talk about friends. Not the TV show, but friends, in general.
I had and still have friends all around the world, from my home-country to where I live and in between. Since one of the two best friends I have from my home-city has celebrated her 20th birthday, which makes me even more home-sick that I have not been next to her, I decided to write about it. How I feel about my past, about my present and mostly how my future would look like and around which people would I most engage myself into conversations and certain friendships.
I don't know about you, but for me, friends have been now and then and they go away. What I had until now, have remained just two. I used to love people's company and don't get me wrong, I still do but in a different way. It's so sad to talk about it, actually since you, as a reader do not know what awaits you even though you choose your own social circle. I, myself have been the type of person who offers friendship to few. Rather one or two than million, so what I did was like this - had a really good childhood friend at my grandma's, one in the capital, the other few in my city. That's how it worked, for years, until it stopped. It just hits me back how fast years go by and without even realizing it, you remain with two best friends, one met in your last pits of despair, when you needed the most, while the other came back from the past slowly, but so fast, that I missed our last Starbucks coffee from October 25th. And so goes by 8 years of friendship that in my opinion, have been ended up utterly better than nothing. You see, there comes a time or just a slight flashback in your head that because of your 'friend', many things have happened. I could even write a novel about it, but d'oh, yet no. I want to remember those 8 years as being either non-existent, either some moments of happiness shed out in tears and most moments of anger screaming in forgive.
Forgive. Forgave. Forgiven.
It's done. Nothing else could go back because I moved on and even though it occurs to me: 'she might think I am a bitch', that directly, I still do not care less. When I think now, about my present how better it feels and how much nicer it is when I do not get a FB message which screams out loud (in caps lock) 'please help me, I am dumb!'. You know what, be dumb for yourself. And yet, again, the anger comes out. I tried being polite, I tried being HUMAN, but you know what? It doesn't suit me in this context.
I know back there, 2400 km away, there are 2 angels thinking about me during a coffee break, and no matter what, will I always be next to them! This means true friendship, the ones who stay close to you, respect you, admit in your face when you are wrong or about to make a mistake!
Of course, next to them, I have other friends here, which I will also never forget and they remain in my heart and social life even if I get married. *joke*
About the future, what can I say.. it will tell in time which kind of people will my path match and overtake, but what I want is to surround myself next to happy, smiley people which I can get a grip of my life and a sunshine in my pocket to sing along with , no matter rain or snow, those people that bring your mood on and up to the sky! Those are the most important and most wanted..by me! *happy face*
No matter what on this planet Earth, no matter which personality you have, whether you are smart or outrageously crazy, you will always find at least one person that will fit your heart in friendship.
For me, personally, that first person in my life, appeared 21 years ago, on a bright Saturday night June sky and that first person above all, was my mother. She is the only first one on my list and life that will never let me down. ;-)
Find your greatness in everything, especially in people that matter - friendship comes and goes even though a few remain pristine, maybe far away or close, but definitely have a place in your heart!
Happy Birthday, you adorable, amazing person, my lovely M.
I wish you all the best in the world, especially the most important - happiness.
P.S. this is what awaits you, M. & S. when I get back ! ;-)
Lots of love,
R.
So, today, wonderful day after yesterday's awful weather! Sun coming out was felt like no other feeling, just because I have not seen such a 'beauty' in quite a long time, since the weather in the North is colder than the Central Europe.
And what can I talk about today? I can find millions and billions of subjects but let's talk about friends. Not the TV show, but friends, in general.
I had and still have friends all around the world, from my home-country to where I live and in between. Since one of the two best friends I have from my home-city has celebrated her 20th birthday, which makes me even more home-sick that I have not been next to her, I decided to write about it. How I feel about my past, about my present and mostly how my future would look like and around which people would I most engage myself into conversations and certain friendships.
I don't know about you, but for me, friends have been now and then and they go away. What I had until now, have remained just two. I used to love people's company and don't get me wrong, I still do but in a different way. It's so sad to talk about it, actually since you, as a reader do not know what awaits you even though you choose your own social circle. I, myself have been the type of person who offers friendship to few. Rather one or two than million, so what I did was like this - had a really good childhood friend at my grandma's, one in the capital, the other few in my city. That's how it worked, for years, until it stopped. It just hits me back how fast years go by and without even realizing it, you remain with two best friends, one met in your last pits of despair, when you needed the most, while the other came back from the past slowly, but so fast, that I missed our last Starbucks coffee from October 25th. And so goes by 8 years of friendship that in my opinion, have been ended up utterly better than nothing. You see, there comes a time or just a slight flashback in your head that because of your 'friend', many things have happened. I could even write a novel about it, but d'oh, yet no. I want to remember those 8 years as being either non-existent, either some moments of happiness shed out in tears and most moments of anger screaming in forgive.
Forgive. Forgave. Forgiven.
It's done. Nothing else could go back because I moved on and even though it occurs to me: 'she might think I am a bitch', that directly, I still do not care less. When I think now, about my present how better it feels and how much nicer it is when I do not get a FB message which screams out loud (in caps lock) 'please help me, I am dumb!'. You know what, be dumb for yourself. And yet, again, the anger comes out. I tried being polite, I tried being HUMAN, but you know what? It doesn't suit me in this context.
I know back there, 2400 km away, there are 2 angels thinking about me during a coffee break, and no matter what, will I always be next to them! This means true friendship, the ones who stay close to you, respect you, admit in your face when you are wrong or about to make a mistake!
Of course, next to them, I have other friends here, which I will also never forget and they remain in my heart and social life even if I get married. *joke*
About the future, what can I say.. it will tell in time which kind of people will my path match and overtake, but what I want is to surround myself next to happy, smiley people which I can get a grip of my life and a sunshine in my pocket to sing along with , no matter rain or snow, those people that bring your mood on and up to the sky! Those are the most important and most wanted..by me! *happy face*
No matter what on this planet Earth, no matter which personality you have, whether you are smart or outrageously crazy, you will always find at least one person that will fit your heart in friendship.
For me, personally, that first person in my life, appeared 21 years ago, on a bright Saturday night June sky and that first person above all, was my mother. She is the only first one on my list and life that will never let me down. ;-)
Find your greatness in everything, especially in people that matter - friendship comes and goes even though a few remain pristine, maybe far away or close, but definitely have a place in your heart!
Happy Birthday, you adorable, amazing person, my lovely M.
I wish you all the best in the world, especially the most important - happiness.
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P.S. this is what awaits you, M. & S. when I get back ! ;-)
Lots of love,
R.