If I am aspiring every time and everyday to higher and advanced goals, to pursue them and wish whereas hope for more... must know it already, I shall definitely succeed!
Perfect hope.. perfect moment, perfect present, perfect future!
I am certain that out there are billions and trillions of persons that wish for a better life as in a better job, a better wife, house or whatever but what is most important in life is to attract only the positive items during life. You see, I am just in the beginning of the fierceful and tremendous ride, but when I think it in a different way, I have spent 20 years of my life only learning. Nothing more, nothing less. I am not saying I regret it, but the fact that all your life you don't do mostly anything interesting, genuine or whatever, and then realize you spent a lot of time and that maybe one day this ride will end and you will no longer have time to do the things you most wanted.
Therefore, my life has just begun or should I interpret it from a different angle rather perspective? It's almost the end of the year and time is passing by in a full-speed mode as usual, so I need to create my NY's Resolutions for the previous one, yet, to come. Slowly, but fast. Softly, but rough. This year will be completely different: again me, but change of scenery. architecture, grass, public transportation, acquaintances. Even my name now sounds different when you pronounce it. Jezz.. and how many other things I need to do before my journey ends..
It seems I am enrolling and engaging myself in tasks I can now complete and it makes me feel so accomplished and self-aware of my abilities and skills, yet to evolve, both psychological and in a superior matter, economical.
Wishing for a perfect future? I am just wishing the best for myself, as in mostly loving what I am acquainted with and learning what else is needed in order to fulfil my goals.
Another fact I was concerned about was love. Indeed, it makes me think about relationships and as I am in the position of having my head in the clouds (it happens quite rarely!), what I need to learn is hidden in the bottom of my heart. Showing it, feeling it.. jezz it feels so elusive, but easily to talk about. Describing the past, I must say I am mostly disappointed but not entirely! I have learned a few things, left and right.. back and forth.. circle of love, make-up, break-up, another change of scenery, yet nothing has changed. Although back then I was a kid, here I feel mature. Mature enough to make my own decisions, feeling what is best for me, deciding my future plans, which come with high expectations and hard work. I will never give up! Neither on work or ambition! I just know that I must succeed. However, things did not stay the same, I feel it's time to let go of the past and to certainly feel and live the vibes of life compared to a string with pearls, almost ready to fall, one by one with the passing of time.
I missed it (feeling) and now I feel alive again, only because someone is careful to have a smile on my face everyday and every moment of my life. (I certainly feel happier now than 5 months ago)
I offer gratitude to the ones I deeply consider them special in my heart because they mean everything to me.. they make me smile, feel content, know the music from deep in my heart and complete my words.. extending the way someone, something.. makes me feel really special.. (heart)
Thank you, love, for not giving up on me, broken-mirror of my past, refurbished room of my heart.
I feel, I learn, I have thoughts and feelings that need to be expressed, of course in my own different way of seeing life from my own perspective and experiences.
I once knew someone who was expressing himself and offering all the love from the world, but screwed it worse when he had to actually show it, not in words, but in facts. I once knew someone who would give everything for that special one, but denied everything when his special one had different plans with their life. I once.. had a dream I visited New York, but that doesn't mean you give it up! You fight for your options and principals, you should never give up! I once knew that someone was my everything, but you know what they say.. tables turn and believe me, they actually turn viceversa you hoped for. But thank you, *someone* that you took off your mask and now the real face is revealed. Thank you for now I am happier than ever without a ring on my finger, without a cat in my backyard, without relatives living in my home, without leaving my beloved ones behind, without friends that stab me with the knife behind my back, without YOU, mon chéri.. and that feels complete. You never had my soul, never will, excuse me for disappointing you, but you are just worthless, along with other billions of people around you!
In the depths of Winter, I finally learned there was in me an invincible Summer !
XoXo,
R.
Perfect hope.. perfect moment, perfect present, perfect future!
I am certain that out there are billions and trillions of persons that wish for a better life as in a better job, a better wife, house or whatever but what is most important in life is to attract only the positive items during life. You see, I am just in the beginning of the fierceful and tremendous ride, but when I think it in a different way, I have spent 20 years of my life only learning. Nothing more, nothing less. I am not saying I regret it, but the fact that all your life you don't do mostly anything interesting, genuine or whatever, and then realize you spent a lot of time and that maybe one day this ride will end and you will no longer have time to do the things you most wanted.
Therefore, my life has just begun or should I interpret it from a different angle rather perspective? It's almost the end of the year and time is passing by in a full-speed mode as usual, so I need to create my NY's Resolutions for the previous one, yet, to come. Slowly, but fast. Softly, but rough. This year will be completely different: again me, but change of scenery. architecture, grass, public transportation, acquaintances. Even my name now sounds different when you pronounce it. Jezz.. and how many other things I need to do before my journey ends..
It seems I am enrolling and engaging myself in tasks I can now complete and it makes me feel so accomplished and self-aware of my abilities and skills, yet to evolve, both psychological and in a superior matter, economical.
Wishing for a perfect future? I am just wishing the best for myself, as in mostly loving what I am acquainted with and learning what else is needed in order to fulfil my goals.
Another fact I was concerned about was love. Indeed, it makes me think about relationships and as I am in the position of having my head in the clouds (it happens quite rarely!), what I need to learn is hidden in the bottom of my heart. Showing it, feeling it.. jezz it feels so elusive, but easily to talk about. Describing the past, I must say I am mostly disappointed but not entirely! I have learned a few things, left and right.. back and forth.. circle of love, make-up, break-up, another change of scenery, yet nothing has changed. Although back then I was a kid, here I feel mature. Mature enough to make my own decisions, feeling what is best for me, deciding my future plans, which come with high expectations and hard work. I will never give up! Neither on work or ambition! I just know that I must succeed. However, things did not stay the same, I feel it's time to let go of the past and to certainly feel and live the vibes of life compared to a string with pearls, almost ready to fall, one by one with the passing of time.
I missed it (feeling) and now I feel alive again, only because someone is careful to have a smile on my face everyday and every moment of my life. (I certainly feel happier now than 5 months ago)
I offer gratitude to the ones I deeply consider them special in my heart because they mean everything to me.. they make me smile, feel content, know the music from deep in my heart and complete my words.. extending the way someone, something.. makes me feel really special.. (heart)
Thank you, love, for not giving up on me, broken-mirror of my past, refurbished room of my heart.
I feel, I learn, I have thoughts and feelings that need to be expressed, of course in my own different way of seeing life from my own perspective and experiences.
I once knew someone who was expressing himself and offering all the love from the world, but screwed it worse when he had to actually show it, not in words, but in facts. I once knew someone who would give everything for that special one, but denied everything when his special one had different plans with their life. I once.. had a dream I visited New York, but that doesn't mean you give it up! You fight for your options and principals, you should never give up! I once knew that someone was my everything, but you know what they say.. tables turn and believe me, they actually turn viceversa you hoped for. But thank you, *someone* that you took off your mask and now the real face is revealed. Thank you for now I am happier than ever without a ring on my finger, without a cat in my backyard, without relatives living in my home, without leaving my beloved ones behind, without friends that stab me with the knife behind my back, without YOU, mon chéri.. and that feels complete. You never had my soul, never will, excuse me for disappointing you, but you are just worthless, along with other billions of people around you!
In the depths of Winter, I finally learned there was in me an invincible Summer !
R.