Rain over me with joy and happiness..
I just found out that happiness is something you gain if you really deserve it. If you do good, you receive good and viceversa: you do bad, recieve bad.
You know..some things are never going to be the same because the bitterness inside me is developing quite in a fast motion. I must say due to my experience, the feelings and emotions have been changed since I arrived in my ''new world' and are actually in a continuous distortion. People around me are feeling different and seem differently because of their personality and reflection on life. Time is passing by and I feel that so far, nothing great has been done. Neither I or the world. Day after day, I am criticizing myself so harsh that I forget about my quality traits and see only the negative parts. Well, this is god awful and what is more abominable is the fact that I already know it. That is why I need to stop this in every possible way. It's time to lay my cards on the table. I cannot do this anymore, this 'love' affair, which in my point of view, it was one hell of a month, but not only this one, that the other one was too. If a man loves a woman, we would do anything for her. If she leaves and chooses to follow her path, then it doesn't mean she 'loves him not', but the fact that she wants her dreams to come true. I had a dream since I was 10 and that of leaving my home-land and experience new cultures. I never gave up and that is why I am now here. You see, some people just do not understand that when you have a dream, you must fulfil it. They only see the superficial in you and never the real ego. Then, you have the responsibility to explain yourself and your character, but they still do not understand why can't you do it differently, in their opinion. After what has been said, and all the useless explanation, they will hate you forever. People do not change. Never. And for that, I must stop telling myself that some might change. Actually, I already handled it and putting on a new headline to my chapter..
Anyway, stuff will definitely not be the same and I mean it wholeheartedly. Time will tell.
XoXo,
Roxanne.
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You know..some things are never going to be the same because the bitterness inside me is developing quite in a fast motion. I must say due to my experience, the feelings and emotions have been changed since I arrived in my ''new world' and are actually in a continuous distortion. People around me are feeling different and seem differently because of their personality and reflection on life. Time is passing by and I feel that so far, nothing great has been done. Neither I or the world. Day after day, I am criticizing myself so harsh that I forget about my quality traits and see only the negative parts. Well, this is god awful and what is more abominable is the fact that I already know it. That is why I need to stop this in every possible way. It's time to lay my cards on the table. I cannot do this anymore, this 'love' affair, which in my point of view, it was one hell of a month, but not only this one, that the other one was too. If a man loves a woman, we would do anything for her. If she leaves and chooses to follow her path, then it doesn't mean she 'loves him not', but the fact that she wants her dreams to come true. I had a dream since I was 10 and that of leaving my home-land and experience new cultures. I never gave up and that is why I am now here. You see, some people just do not understand that when you have a dream, you must fulfil it. They only see the superficial in you and never the real ego. Then, you have the responsibility to explain yourself and your character, but they still do not understand why can't you do it differently, in their opinion. After what has been said, and all the useless explanation, they will hate you forever. People do not change. Never. And for that, I must stop telling myself that some might change. Actually, I already handled it and putting on a new headline to my chapter..
Anyway, stuff will definitely not be the same and I mean it wholeheartedly. Time will tell.
XoXo,
Roxanne.