Present mood: Impatience and laziness.
A part from the many stuff I had to do is complete, although something else is not. Infatuous smiles are covering the layer where lies are hidden deeply and none would understand the pain. Neither anyone, but me. Ti amo! Ti amo! Ti amo! - I would greatly say it out loudly. On the other hand..I cannot and will not. You know..what I do not understand at all is the fact that a person turns out to be the one whom you no longer recognize. It is indeed an absolute insanity. You come across so many things with that person that you lose track of time; they say the sky is the limit, but I say even some words are a limit to something that would eventually go wrong or viceversa. I do not understand and I beg someone to explain me this procedure or concept. I meet someone that turns out to be so lovely that I enjoy speaking to and eventually his presence. Then, you start a relationship by the concept: 'you would do this right'. This time..imagine a whole year of almost every day happiness and no 'cat-fighting' ..then some months where you would hardly speak to him. Where are the feelings gone? Where my memoirs at..? but my head ? or heart? I'll tell you that the heart is torn up to pieces and first song I have in mind is Christina Aguilera's 'I hate boys', not 'I want to know what love is' by Foreigner. I feel an utterly disgust of everything around me. Even of words, because they are expressed in a way different manner than what the brain thinks! Anyway..time is the best solution for everything and I except the fact that I have liberty and free of charge to do whatever I please because that 'one' does not seem to care about my last days to be spending in this country. I hope that one day, I would learn more about love and other stuff I call, for now, meaningless.
All in all...there is something to live but for now, not really..
I guess I've been left with me, myself and I and you know what? I'm lovin' it!
XoXo,
Roxanne.
A part from the many stuff I had to do is complete, although something else is not. Infatuous smiles are covering the layer where lies are hidden deeply and none would understand the pain. Neither anyone, but me. Ti amo! Ti amo! Ti amo! - I would greatly say it out loudly. On the other hand..I cannot and will not. You know..what I do not understand at all is the fact that a person turns out to be the one whom you no longer recognize. It is indeed an absolute insanity. You come across so many things with that person that you lose track of time; they say the sky is the limit, but I say even some words are a limit to something that would eventually go wrong or viceversa. I do not understand and I beg someone to explain me this procedure or concept. I meet someone that turns out to be so lovely that I enjoy speaking to and eventually his presence. Then, you start a relationship by the concept: 'you would do this right'. This time..imagine a whole year of almost every day happiness and no 'cat-fighting' ..then some months where you would hardly speak to him. Where are the feelings gone? Where my memoirs at..? but my head ? or heart? I'll tell you that the heart is torn up to pieces and first song I have in mind is Christina Aguilera's 'I hate boys', not 'I want to know what love is' by Foreigner. I feel an utterly disgust of everything around me. Even of words, because they are expressed in a way different manner than what the brain thinks! Anyway..time is the best solution for everything and I except the fact that I have liberty and free of charge to do whatever I please because that 'one' does not seem to care about my last days to be spending in this country. I hope that one day, I would learn more about love and other stuff I call, for now, meaningless.
All in all...there is something to live but for now, not really..
I guess I've been left with me, myself and I and you know what? I'm lovin' it!
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Roxanne.